Harrisonburg week 10 or so

Dear Everyone, This week has been a really good one. I spent this week reading "Jesus The Christ."if you haven't read this book before, do it! haha anyway this week i was reading that book and i was following the life of the savior. The last week of His life. It was really an eye-opening experience to follow the life of the savior. I learned many things which i never would have even thought about. I realized a lot of little details that i would have missed simply just reading the accounts out of the new testament. When i read about certain parts, it really made me think a lot. I really felt bad for Judas, for instance.It got me thinking about who Judas was. Because his weakness was money. Well someone else's weakness has been money. Joseph Smith...both of them had a big weakness to money, and the only difference between the two of them was the action that they made. One is now revered as the "son of perdition" and the other "has done more, save Jesus only, for the salvation of men in this world, than any other man that ever lived in it."The thing i thought of was: what is my weakness, and how can i keep from becoming a slave to the devil like Judas.I think i received my answer though during the week and i thought that I'd share that with all of you this week.You see, Judas, I feel, was a seeker for attention. He probably followed Jesus Christ because he had a huge following. I feel like it was because of the popularity of Jesus, he followed. Surely when the popular guy invites you to hang out with them in High School, you go. The thing is that Judas, i felt, didn't gain a testimony until after he had betrayed his master. So the lesson i could gain from him, is i need to gain my testimony right now, and not linger and procrastinate the day of my repentance. This easter was one to remember the divinity of our Savior, who reaches out to all and beckons to "come, follow me." I have a testimony that Jesus Christ is our Savior. He IS RISEN! he did it only because he loves us so so very much. i know that my weaknesses are there, so that my heavenly father can test me and see just how ready i am to become like him. i am, though, going to do all that i can RIGHT NOW to become more like him and i encourage you all to do the same. SincerelyElder Curtis Ross Hickman

Harrisonburg week 10 or so

Dear Everyone, This week has been a really good one. I spent this week reading "Jesus The Christ."if you haven't read this book before, do it! haha anyway this week i was reading that book and i was following the life of the savior. The last week of His life. It was really an eye-opening experience to follow the life of the savior. I learned many things which i never would have even thought about. I realized a lot of little details that i would have missed simply just reading the accounts out of the new testament. When i read about certain parts, it really made me think a lot. I really felt bad for Judas, for instance.It got me thinking about who Judas was. Because his weakness was money. Well someone else's weakness has been money. Joseph Smith...both of them had a big weakness to money, and the only difference between the two of them was the action that they made. One is now revered as the "son of perdition" and the other "has done more, save Jesus only, for the salvation of men in this world, than any other man that ever lived in it."The thing i thought of was: what is my weakness, and how can i keep from becoming a slave to the devil like Judas.I think i received my answer though during the week and i thought that I'd share that with all of you this week.You see, Judas, I feel, was a seeker for attention. He probably followed Jesus Christ because he had a huge following. I feel like it was because of the popularity of Jesus, he followed. Surely when the popular guy invites you to hang out with them in High School, you go. The thing is that Judas, i felt, didn't gain a testimony until after he had betrayed his master. So the lesson i could gain from him, is i need to gain my testimony right now, and not linger and procrastinate the day of my repentance. This easter was one to remember the divinity of our Savior, who reaches out to all and beckons to "come, follow me." I have a testimony that Jesus Christ is our Savior. He IS RISEN! he did it only because he loves us so so very much. i know that my weaknesses are there, so that my heavenly father can test me and see just how ready i am to become like him. i am, though, going to do all that i can RIGHT NOW to become more like him and i encourage you all to do the same. SincerelyElder Curtis Ross Hickman

Week 5

Dear Family And Friends,

Today is Tuesday...yes i know Monday is the normal day to get on the computer and type a letter to all...but yesterday was president's day...which means that all the local libraries would be closed. This last week has been quite eventful. Earlier in the week, we went into Charlottesville because my companion had a cold. That was a bummer for him. Because we didn't have an appointment it took us beyond hours to get in to see someone. This week was also transfer calls week. I just found out that I'm gonna be going to a new area called Harrisonburg. it's even farther west than my last area. really close to west Virginia. Anyways I have been going and trying to get some last minute work into Louisa and you'll be amazed to hear that Granny...The one who is refusing to be "Dunked" as she called it...COMMITTED TO BE BAPTIZED! What a trooper. 92 and still anxious to learn the Gospel of Jesus Christ. I'm so Happy For Her!!!!!!!
Elder Matthews Is sticking around in Louisa, So I'll have to keep in touch with him and make sure that Peggy and now Granny are Baptized so they can enjoy the Spirit Even More so now :)
Yesterday, On Preparation day, we had some of the Elders from the Rivannah area come down and spend the day with us. We played a game of Football and in one particular play, Elder LeSueur, One of the Rivannah elders, made a full body dive to 2 hand touch one Elder Thompson, The Other elder in that area. He ate the dirt, and the Horse Manueur and when he got up we were laughing pretty hard...that is until he said dude i think there's something wrong with my Shoulder.
The Rest of the P-Day was spent driving to Charlottesville and going to the emergency room, where we found out that he had separated his shoulder. All they could do for it though was give it a sling and give him some pain meds. It has been pretty good week though and the work has been more than amazing out here in little Louisa County. The Lord has plans for me in the area of Harrisonburg and i plan on doing all i can to prepare to carry out His plan. I am so grateful for all your support and your love and if there's possibly anything That i can do to be of assistance, Let me know. I Love each of you and would love to hear from you

Love,
Elder Curtis Ross Hickman

PS. Love is the Answer

TIME AND TIME AGAIN, MY FAMILY PROVES THEY ARE THE BEST FAMILY AROUND

I Have The Coolest Family

design

i want to be a spaceman
i want to to cop
i want to fight fires with other brave men
i want to sell soda pop

i want to fly
i want to swim
and win gold medals all day long
i really want to win

i want my work to be the fire
that everyone remembers
i want to plant it in their hearts
let it be the embers

hard to find

her eyes are shining brightly
everything about her might be
driving me off the walls

i can't tell her that i love her
...just be easier if things were
just little more crazy

cuz i know just how i feel
these feelings here are real
and it's killing me all the time

i look at her and she looks back
this train is coming off the tracks
it's easy when it's in your mind
and words aren't so hard to find

Get To Know You

don't let this be a fling
i wanna make it though,
become your everything
i want to get to know you

you're all i ever want and more
you're what i came to this earth for
you and i should run away
that teenage 'love' is so cliche

he met this girl way back in school
the kinda girl that broke the rules
acted like one of the guys
but had to tell her parents lies

it's been two years a lot has passed
before, they moved things way too fast
things will work this time around
because his feet are on the ground

they're in the car
they're holding hands
they're listening to different bands

her heart's pounding as he sings
of lovey, dovey, dovey, dovey things

i want the presence of your love
your hand in mine fits like a glove
the glint in your eyes, they make me smile
it's been this way for quite a while

we're ahead of ourselves
for now this love's not true
unless can take things slow
let me get to know you

fools

we were such a load of trouble, making a right mess
i can't even remember what we did that night, bless.
i broke my nose, you broke your wrist, but they could hardly see
i told those punks to shut up about my sister, and they said free country


cuz we were young and we were fools
us kids were breakin all the rules
we loved to have fun tiiiimes, i know
and we were too good to get caught
i miss those nights, i miss our old lives
a lot

that night i got to take you out, it left the greatest mark
we didn't want to go home yet, so we snuck into the park
we sat there talkin on the swings, and making life our own
it's best that we still do it now, so we are not... ALONE!!

cuz we were young and we were fools
us kids were breakin all the rules
we loved to have fun tiiiimes, i know
and we were too good to get caught
i miss those nights, i miss our old lives
a lot

the many days that we slept in, the countless times that we have sinned
the problems we caused, the times i took it on the chin.

cuz we were young and we were fools
us kids were breakin all the rules
we loved to have fun tiiiimes, i know
and we were too good to get caught
i miss those nights, i miss our old lives
a lot

cuz we were young and we were fools
us kids were breakin all the rules
we loved to have fun tiiiimes, i know
and we were too good to get caught
i miss those nights, i miss our old lives
a lot

It used to just be the two of us
Not another to come between
Funny how things change
One little kiss, one word that you didn’t mean

But it was great, the fun with your friends
Where I’d gaze at you like fool
The times you’d give me the biggest grin
When I’d visit you at school

I said I’d write this poem
my heart isn’t in it though.
It’s lying on your front steps
With the wind and the snow

If there was any way I could’ve help this more
You know I would have
I feel like the hero, torn in two
Cuz you’re the one I couldn’t save

I guess I give
This isn’t my fault anymore
I’m over it
Really I am
Bye

Love Without Pain Is Not really Romance

but the moments that hurt are the ones that are real, and without these horrible feelings we feel, it's no easy road, it's much more than it seems to become that someone that she see's in her dreams

These are the nights

A friend like you

A moment with you
is like a crazy car ride
who knows how far we'll go
that way you held my hand
what if this is love

all i know is that a friend like you
doesn't come along twice
but you did to me what no other can do
and it's been super nice

I've learned over time
that most of the best things are a dream ending so ruel
but our friendship's not even close
it is sooooo cool

all i know is that a friend like you
doesn't come along twice
but you did to me what no other can do
and it's been super nice

remember when i took you to the homecoming dance
because both our dates backed out
and you cleaned my wounds when time got jealous
and smacked me about

all i know is that a friend like you
doesn't come along twice
but you did to me what no other can do
and it's been super nice

if i could find a better way i would
you know that i love you, and my word is good

all i know is that a friend like you
doesn't come along twice
but you did to me what no other can do
and it's been super nice

all i know is that a friend like you
doesn't come along twice
but you did to me what no other can do
and it's been super nice

yeahhhhh. it's been nice

Double Me

the day goes along
and everything is wrong
life is frozen but the world is moving
and there's nothing left for losing

Notice Me

we've been going for what seems like forever
and you need a drink
you ask me to help you out, and i do
did you ever stop to think.

maybe he cares like no other
maybe he can take your shiz
maybe he's genuine
and just maybe knows what love is...

you're cold, because the storm has soaked us
i give you the one last piece of clothing i have
you take it and move along
and did you ever stop to think.

maybe he cares like no other
maybe he can take your shiz
maybe he's genuine
and just maybe knows what love is...

i ask you to spend time with me
and it's the other way around
you'd rather be with someone else
and it runs me in the ground

maybe he cares like no other
maybe he can take your shiz
maybe he's genuine
and just maybe knows what love is...

how can it be that everybody
wants me to agree,
when i feel this way, i feel this way
but i'd never put that on your conscience

but i want you to know so bad
that i'm the one you want
don't just overlook this
give it some thought

maybe he cares like no other
maybe he can take your shiz
maybe he's genuine
and just maybe knows what love is...

maybe he cares like no other
maybe he can take your shiz
maybe he's genuine
and just maybe knows what love is...

repressing the repulsive

life comes at you
and you take it
you put it behind you
but what goes on in between the two

i'll tell you

you won't want to do anything.
like you're body is hungry, yet empty
and nothing you can do can make you not be hungry
you just wanna lay in bed. just "watch" tv.
but you stare at the telly. incoherent of what's actually playing
you don't want to do anything
when you finally feel like you do want to do something,
its only so that you don't have to be told off for doing nothing

that's what it's like

then one day...
you go somewhere with your friends and you see someone
she's totally more boss than anyone ever. more stunningly beautiful
you forget that you've been hurt so greatly
it doesn't matter. she does now
and all of a sudden life is better

so you pursue...

she thinks you're cute, and you get confident
you're heart feels like it can be on top of the world
like no one can make you feel more special.
you never want to let her go

and then...

"I'm moving...
_____________...Where?
Texas.......
____________...So what do we do?
...I Dunno"

And she's gone,

Then the cycle repeats.

turning around

once again i'm stuck at this cross roads
because i know that things are going to change
with you and me. i have a chance again
i knew that i would wait, just didn't think u might come round
i doubt that you will but i hope you do
it's just a dream
it's been a long shot. but i love you
i always have for some reason
even when i am speaking stupid and and i piss you off
i know that you are the the most important thing to me
i have a hard time figuring out, how i could be this way
nothing ever really worked out. and it's just so weird that i do.
but i do

days go bye

days go by
i haven't got to say what i want to
so i'm going to now.

i hate you
i hate that there's nothing i can do about it
i hate that i couldn't win your heart
i hate that you never really loved me
i hate that i let myself love you.
i hate that i let my heart get cut in two
i hate that i still dream of you.
i hate that when i listen to any song, you're the first girl i put the song to
i hate that i was part of the plan
i hate that i don't know how to handle this
i hate that it's been so long since i let this out
i hate that i could easily move on, yet i still would rather have you back
i hate that i'm being held back because you're still here
i hate that i cried over you
i hate that i fell for you
i hate that i did track this year just to be with you
i hate that ur friend was just as cute yet i picked you

still

freezing time in a moment was not a tough choice
but with who it was with, it was without voice
i was with a girl i still think i love
but it didn't got the way i thought it would've
i think about how time and again
how it was way back when
with no one but her to care about and enjoy
and make me feel like a giddy little boy
it's weird to recollect the way we met
"you're cute," she said.
"what do you expect."
now it's been over a year in the pas
i really wanted that relation to last
but when things cannot go the way planned
the world will bring us new friends
it's why i rethink that time we were alone
when the elevator could have been whatever we chose
i wished i was back there with you in my arms
i wished that i was back then
it can't be though so life will go on
and different opportunities will come along.

how do i handle this

i hear one thing
you mean the another,
if it's all for this
why should i bother

when lies become life
things just go wrong
we can't talk like this
it just hasn't been that long

maybe it was rushed
and maybe it's too fast
but it's not like
i don't want this to last

think about it, our time together
here, then, and now
was it good enough for you
or should we take our bows

you mean so much to me
not just cause your face
things just happened
our lives have interlaced

come on i'm doing my best
but sometimes these just don't work
i'm doing the things i can
to not look the "jerk"

so maybe lots of stuffs going on in my mind
it what happens when you know you care
you'll do anything for that special someone
it's the least i can do to show i care.

jeez i sound like a sap
i freaking do this too much
i'll seriously be there
i'll be the one to make you blush

the one to make you happy
make things un-sad
our time together has been short
who cares, it's been rad

i know stop laughing,
nothing rhymed better than rad
it's some certain inevitable thing that comes
when your poetry is this bad

hear me out,
it's not that hard
my words are simple
i'm simply scarred

too many bad choices, situations, and luck
have made me this way
i don't want to lose you
because i just got back the "icing" to my day

things feel better
being around you,
life is cooler, and optimistic
just tell me the truth.

i'll accept it either way
i'd rather know up front
than anticipate wrong
and end up alone to walk the pavement

New Track List...Listen to the songs. It's A Fun List

Sorry Father, Sorry God. - The City's Finest
Lollipop - Framing Hanley
The Taste Of Regret - In Fear And Faith
Stop Calling Me NEW SONG! - Boys Will Be Boys
Not Meant To Be - Theory Of A Dead Man
Open Happiness - Brendon Urie, Cee-Lo Green, Janelle Monae, Patrick Stump & Travis McCoy
Your Call - Secondhand Serenade
I Wanna Love You - The Maine
Over My Head (Cable Car) - A Day To Remember
Apologize - Silverstein
Birthday Girl - Van Atta High
Almost Easy - Avenged Sevenfold
Misery Loves Its Company - The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
Anything But Textbook - The Doppler Effect
Wonderwall - Cartel
Feel Good Drag - Anberlin
The Only Way I Know How To Feel - Boys Like Girls
This Is Our Town - We The Kings