repressing the repulsive

life comes at you
and you take it
you put it behind you
but what goes on in between the two

i'll tell you

you won't want to do anything.
like you're body is hungry, yet empty
and nothing you can do can make you not be hungry
you just wanna lay in bed. just "watch" tv.
but you stare at the telly. incoherent of what's actually playing
you don't want to do anything
when you finally feel like you do want to do something,
its only so that you don't have to be told off for doing nothing

that's what it's like

then one day...
you go somewhere with your friends and you see someone
she's totally more boss than anyone ever. more stunningly beautiful
you forget that you've been hurt so greatly
it doesn't matter. she does now
and all of a sudden life is better

so you pursue...

she thinks you're cute, and you get confident
you're heart feels like it can be on top of the world
like no one can make you feel more special.
you never want to let her go

and then...

"I'm moving...
_____________...Where?
Texas.......
____________...So what do we do?
...I Dunno"

And she's gone,

Then the cycle repeats.