how do i handle this

i hear one thing
you mean the another,
if it's all for this
why should i bother

when lies become life
things just go wrong
we can't talk like this
it just hasn't been that long

maybe it was rushed
and maybe it's too fast
but it's not like
i don't want this to last

think about it, our time together
here, then, and now
was it good enough for you
or should we take our bows

you mean so much to me
not just cause your face
things just happened
our lives have interlaced

come on i'm doing my best
but sometimes these just don't work
i'm doing the things i can
to not look the "jerk"

so maybe lots of stuffs going on in my mind
it what happens when you know you care
you'll do anything for that special someone
it's the least i can do to show i care.

jeez i sound like a sap
i freaking do this too much
i'll seriously be there
i'll be the one to make you blush

the one to make you happy
make things un-sad
our time together has been short
who cares, it's been rad

i know stop laughing,
nothing rhymed better than rad
it's some certain inevitable thing that comes
when your poetry is this bad

hear me out,
it's not that hard
my words are simple
i'm simply scarred

too many bad choices, situations, and luck
have made me this way
i don't want to lose you
because i just got back the "icing" to my day

things feel better
being around you,
life is cooler, and optimistic
just tell me the truth.

i'll accept it either way
i'd rather know up front
than anticipate wrong
and end up alone to walk the pavement

New Track List...Listen to the songs. It's A Fun List

Sorry Father, Sorry God. - The City's Finest
Lollipop - Framing Hanley
The Taste Of Regret - In Fear And Faith
Stop Calling Me NEW SONG! - Boys Will Be Boys
Not Meant To Be - Theory Of A Dead Man
Open Happiness - Brendon Urie, Cee-Lo Green, Janelle Monae, Patrick Stump & Travis McCoy
Your Call - Secondhand Serenade
I Wanna Love You - The Maine
Over My Head (Cable Car) - A Day To Remember
Apologize - Silverstein
Birthday Girl - Van Atta High
Almost Easy - Avenged Sevenfold
Misery Loves Its Company - The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
Anything But Textbook - The Doppler Effect
Wonderwall - Cartel
Feel Good Drag - Anberlin
The Only Way I Know How To Feel - Boys Like Girls
This Is Our Town - We The Kings

New Interests

So basically there's this girl. if she reads this she'll be like who is it :)
i've told you i'm interested though. so no need to worry :)
she's got some really beautiful eyes though. oh man, i could look into those darling eyes all night long :) she's really easy on the eyes haha. and she's got nice brown hair. very sexy hair haha. she's not taller than me which is nice. she is on the track team with me so she's athletic 4sho. she totally digs me back. she is like totally open to try new stuff at least that what it seemed like when we played volleyball. she's shy as can be which to me is so precious and cute i can't help but want to hug her and stuff. :) like she really puts the cutest little smile on my face. she likes my singing too. maybe she'll like my poetry haha if she ever reads this lol nobody does but it's cool. ugh man getta phone girl i wanna txt you it's so hard to go without

Pass

Port

Birthday tune

it's hard to write for who i miss
when life had been a black abyss
since i met you, it's has been bright
you've filled my soul up with delight

we've grown up in ways i never dreamed
i've learned things are not as they seemed
i've learned that people should not shove
i've learned how to fall in love

i've learned that life can be cruel
sometimes even unpleasant
but here's to you, a birthday present

you're the greatest girl a guy could ever ask for,
who's heart is pure and true
who'll know that from the start you mean
"i love you"

you are a good girl and you know
that one must make their choices
for the friends and ones you love
that is where your heart is

so here you go
i'm really done
creating such a piece
it's crap, it's quick, it's fun, i hope nice,
but hope you liked it, sheesh.