Random Night At The Computer

I get on late one night.
think to myself how much need for change i have
think about how to start.
whether the mountain dew will be a change
also the face that it's a little late for new years resolutions
but its all random stuff anyway
my whole life is random. Spontaneous
not on edge, because nothing exciting is really happening
but at the same time you people would want to read this
because it's not all about the think you're doing on friday
or about who you will become in 20 years from now
the idea is that you need to decide what to do right now.
where you going to go.
who do you want to call, and admit that you've loved them for so long
who do you want to text and tell that you wish them the best.
what time do you want to go to bed
how long will you lay in bed listening to alarm clock and making up your mind when's the right time
what do you love to do.
what's your favorite video game
is there a way to not get a headache from the absence of dew.
random thoughts whizzing through your mind.
thoughts that wedge their way into the mind. constantly getting at you.
thoughts that are often ignored, because the future is too important.
so i will dwell on these thoughts, live for right now.
2 years away is a long time.

anyways...that's my thought

Ever Feel This Way?

Beauty is power; a smile is its sword.

~Charles Reade

My Life...A Wreck

if i were to compare my life to my car right now...it would seem that my car was a little late. it's recently been a wreck. i couldn't make a right turn. or a left. i was slipping all over the place. it's just a drag to know that there was no going back. so i had to over correct. did i take it too far? the only emotion around me is "god it doesn't matter what happens around me. long as everything else is okay." i talk to the only one who can calm me down right now. help is on the way. just chill out for a minute. i can't go back can i? so i just have to wait. wait for things to get better. and we'll get it fixed. long as your okay. that's not what i wanna hear.you're not helping by just saying it'll get fixed. i need to know that there's a way to do it. i have my life to think about. it needs to be fixed now. my life's outta whack now. but there's no going back. one way or another. i did this. i messed it up. me...me alone. and i need to make it right, no one else


Time To Grow - Lemar

John Lennon Sucks

so pretty much i'm thinking of you
and your funny personality too
you make me laugh
you make me smile
i've missed you for a while

you sat on my lap
and it was uncomfy
i'm just glad my butt
wasn't too lumpy.

i love you
haha i do
but i doubt you think it back
cuz you say it's not true.

i'm talking to you on the phone
i'm upstairs on the computer...alone
we are talking about random stuff
you think my muscles are rugged and tough.

you're a sucker for a guy
i'm a sucker for a sucker
i hope you
don't ditch me for a trucker

i'm gonna sweep you off your feet
i don't know how yet
but i'll find a way....soon maybe
just don't be too hard to get

lemons are random
just like this poem
but we're cooler than the rest
and we're gonna show em.

you're not emo
neither am i
cuz we got each other
why the crap would we wanna die

the beatles were good
until john lennon came
and ripped them all off
in a scamming game

i feel bad that
i just ripped on your friend
but it's okay
because you're forgiveness, you'll lend.

i made you laugh.
i made you mad
i called john lennon stupid
and that was bad

i know you think i'm weird
jk i know you don't
you think i'm awesome
i don't even have to gloat

you like ostriches,
for some strange reason
thank god
it's not mating season

i'm gonna end this now
while i'm ahead.
i hope you enjoyed
what you just read

:)