Random Night At The Computer

I get on late one night.
think to myself how much need for change i have
think about how to start.
whether the mountain dew will be a change
also the face that it's a little late for new years resolutions
but its all random stuff anyway
my whole life is random. Spontaneous
not on edge, because nothing exciting is really happening
but at the same time you people would want to read this
because it's not all about the think you're doing on friday
or about who you will become in 20 years from now
the idea is that you need to decide what to do right now.
where you going to go.
who do you want to call, and admit that you've loved them for so long
who do you want to text and tell that you wish them the best.
what time do you want to go to bed
how long will you lay in bed listening to alarm clock and making up your mind when's the right time
what do you love to do.
what's your favorite video game
is there a way to not get a headache from the absence of dew.
random thoughts whizzing through your mind.
thoughts that wedge their way into the mind. constantly getting at you.
thoughts that are often ignored, because the future is too important.
so i will dwell on these thoughts, live for right now.
2 years away is a long time.

anyways...that's my thought