how do i handle this

i hear one thing
you mean the another,
if it's all for this
why should i bother

when lies become life
things just go wrong
we can't talk like this
it just hasn't been that long

maybe it was rushed
and maybe it's too fast
but it's not like
i don't want this to last

think about it, our time together
here, then, and now
was it good enough for you
or should we take our bows

you mean so much to me
not just cause your face
things just happened
our lives have interlaced

come on i'm doing my best
but sometimes these just don't work
i'm doing the things i can
to not look the "jerk"

so maybe lots of stuffs going on in my mind
it what happens when you know you care
you'll do anything for that special someone
it's the least i can do to show i care.

jeez i sound like a sap
i freaking do this too much
i'll seriously be there
i'll be the one to make you blush

the one to make you happy
make things un-sad
our time together has been short
who cares, it's been rad

i know stop laughing,
nothing rhymed better than rad
it's some certain inevitable thing that comes
when your poetry is this bad

hear me out,
it's not that hard
my words are simple
i'm simply scarred

too many bad choices, situations, and luck
have made me this way
i don't want to lose you
because i just got back the "icing" to my day

things feel better
being around you,
life is cooler, and optimistic
just tell me the truth.

i'll accept it either way
i'd rather know up front
than anticipate wrong
and end up alone to walk the pavement